things i don't believe in.

• i don't believe in sean calling me fat. AT ALL!
• and i don't believe in him using my well deserved chocolates to threaten me if i don't eat.
• i don't believe in my yellowcard cd not being returned to me even after two damn long years!
• i don't believe in lending the servers my cds anymore!
• and living waters not sending in the work when its due!

i have been stressed! so much to do. and i just want to knock my head against the freaking wall. and mummy just scold me. because i overspent. yet again! just messaged me to tell me how pissed she is. i think. i should come up with some kind of financial plan. gosh. sound like what i learnt in school. i think i should save! yes yes i should! and exercise. so that SOMEONE won't call me fatso anymore! yes yes!

i think i should call sheryl. to see if i'm eating lunch with her or not. if not. the only meal of the day will be dinner. and chocolates that someone promised me! i shall remind and remind and remind! i think he already got the gist.

i think some people should be more responsible and do the work that they are assigned to. so that people put in charge. like me. won't get into trouble! and i think i should go for dance practice this week. before i get sacked. and won't be able to perform. then i have to join kayaking or something. ewww!

everyday i sit here waiting.
everyday it jsut seems so long.
and now i've had enough of all the hating.
do we even care?
its so unfair.
anyday it'll all be over.
everyday there's nothing new.
and i'll just to find some hope.
to try and hold onto.
but it starts again.
it'll never end.

i'm heavily broken.
and i don't know what to do.
can't you see that i'm choking.
and i can't even move.
when there's nothing left to say.
what can you do?
i'm heavily broken.
and there's nothing i can do.

almost given up on trying.
almost heading for a fall.
and now my mind is screaming out.
i gotta keep on fighting.
but then again.
it doesn't end.

feels like i'm drowning.
screaming for air.
louder i'm crying
and you don't even care.

heavily broken
; the veronicas.